Just Random

So, have I mentioned that I am sick?

Funny how one glass of water can make you feel soooo much better. I need to remember to stay hydrated.

I had to cancel my trip to see Fancy's second show. I hate that. Her stuff is so amazing. But Southwest (there I go again. Free ticket time!) let me cancel and hold the money to put towards my next flight. No hassle. No gripes. They just did it. Anyone wonder, really, why Southwest is making money and all the others are failing miserably?? Hell, American was going to charge me four bucks just for a shitty snack! And their flights cost tons more!

40 is having a tough couple of days. There isn't much I can do, and I know that. I just really feel my Superman in times like this and wish I could at least be closer. Again, nothing I can do and it isn't mine to fix. But I hate seeing it all the same. I love that girl, is all.

I'm bored. Mom used to bring me coloring books and new crayola cra'ns when I'd get sick as a kid. Now, at 35, I find myself jonesin' for those things.

I need closer connections. I haven't willingly shut myself out here, but I miss having people close who give a shit. Fancy and my group back home. Even in Nashville, I could at least pretend that K could come over and make me soup and baby me a bit. She wouldn't, most likely. But I could pretend.

I want to be curled in 40's lap snoozing comfortably while she reads a book and plays with my hair and my face.

Damn this distance...